I’ve decided to make this blog private-actually not private in the actual terms but open to only selected readers-those who really want to be a part of my life journey!

Past few months I’ve been thinking that ‘why do I write on this blog’? ‘what is the purpose’? The answers I gave myself were like:

>I want to record things,as it is,happening in my life.

>I want to share my happiness with my blog readers who are my friends too.

>I want to know others’ perspective on my point of views.

>I want to find solutions to some problems going around in my head.

>I want to gather lot of best wishes and love at my low times.

So,basically I’m writing here to share with you all and looking forward to read your views [in the form of comments,of course] on the same.

What do comments mean to me? Well:

>The comments in the form of agreement tell me that what I’m thinking or plan to do is right and I feel encouraged.

>The comments in the form of disagreement tell me to rethink on my point of view and show me other side too.

>The comments in the neutral form show me both sides of anything that I’ve presented here.

So,yes comments are important for me.Moreover comments like  ’how nice’,'so sweet’,'awww’ does matter to me. Because there is a greater meaning behind even these type of comments. At least through comments I know who all are visiting my blog and reading about my life. When this blog is open to one and all there could be several lurkers around who might be knowing so much about me as a person and I would never come to know who they are.

By making it a selective open blog I’ll be sure of people who are reading me and that those people are knowing in and out of my life. They might not comment on each of my posts but I’ll know who they are!

I think this makes a lot of sense to me…cause this blog is just not about ‘Wordy Wednesdays’ or ‘Musical Mondays’ and some random picture posts…..it’s also about who Scribby is, what her life is like and about her near and dear ones!

So there!

Now I need to know to whom should I keep this blog open!

>Either you are well or you are not!

If you’re well then there  is no problem but if you’re not then there are two things to worry about:

>Whether you’ll get well or not!

If you get well then there is no problem but if you don’t then there are two things to worry about:

>Whether you’ll live or die!

If you’ll live then there is no problem but if you die then there are two things to be worried about:

>Whether you’ll go to heaven or hell!

If you go to heaven then there is no problem but if you do to hell………….

you’ll meet all your friends there so there will be no time to worry so chill and don’t worry !!!

Filed under: Picture Post, Wordy Wednesday ]]> http://myexpositions.wordpress.com/2011/10/26/wordy-wednesday-15-worry/feed/ 11 Nu http://myexpositions.wordpress.com/2011/10/24/a-dhamaka-conversation/ http://myexpositions.wordpress.com/2011/10/24/a-dhamaka-conversation/#comments Mon, 24 Oct 2011 14:32:56 +0000 Scribby http://myexpositions.wordpress.com/?p=3332 ]]> The husband and wife conversation in Scribby Land!

She: I don’t believe this! How can you forget things every few minutes? *being very upset cause it’s been a year or two now that the husband is constantly forgetting things told even 5 mins back and this habit of forgetfulness is worsening by each passing day*

Him: *silence and just a gentle glance at her*

She: Now why you looking at me like this? Tell me,really,how could you forget to do something that I told you just 1 hour back?

Him: *still maintaining the silence and basically giving that kiddish smile like always*

She: I really wonder how did you top the class every year in school and maintained the same in college too,I sincerely doubt that now!

Him: I’ve an explanation to offer on this!

She: Oh wow,finally! Please go ahead and tell me,will you!!!!!!

Him: Marriage does that to people…read: men!

She: Whatttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt? You mean because of me you’ve become forgetful???? *now angry and surprised at his way of mocking* grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

Him: Oh don’t feel bad about it lady!!! It was just a joke…don’t you watch Hindi movies? *bursts into a laugh*

She: *a what-the-hell-look on her face..already tired tackling a cranky baby today and making chaklis & chiwda and now this!!!*

Him: *now realizing the gravity of the situation* okay okay sorry!!!! Cheer up na! *and saying all those mushy ‘I love you’ types things!!!

She: Hawww…one minute you make fun of me and the next minute you’re like so sweet to me,godddddddd! Where did you learn this art?

Him: Uhhhu,uhhu,told you marriage changes a man!!!!

She:grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

So Diwali in our household has begun people and that too a Dhamakedar one Hope yours is going on well too..what all did you make? So far I’ve managed to make Chaklis and Chiwda. 2 sweets on agenda for tomorrow..Chirpy is a bit cranky today..poor baby is unable to sleep because of loud sounds and on top of that she is caught by cold I hope it doesn’t get severe !!!

Wishing you a happy and prosperous Diwali!

You were the first classmate who extend your hand towards me,for friendship, when I was new to the school in standard VII.In an instant we became good friends. Coincidentally,we both were the tallest girls in the class and were made to sit together in the last row.Since then we’ve always been bench mates too till the end of the schooling. Fortunately we chose same subjects,got allocated to same sections and were always in the same group in the school. Too much same same but it never mattered to us as long as we were together with each other. I remember,don’t whether you do or not, our vice princi used to call us with my first name and your last to make it sound one name-reasoning that we anyway are inseparable and calling our names in unison than calling separately saves time  Yes,we were like famous best friends in the entire school

You used to frequent my home but it was not the other way round. There were some family problems at your end and hence you along with your mother and younger sister were staying with your maternal uncles. Of course such situations make things awkward and you never took your friends home,though sometimes I used to come there for reasons like picking you up,dropping you off. But that’s not the point. My parents knew about your family situation and they were more than careful in handling you-one,because you were my best friend and two because they also liked you very much. You were simple,intelligent and hailed from a good family. Your mother depended on my father’s decision most of the times like whether to send us for the school picnic,or to a friend’s b’day party who lived far far away or to go for shopping for friendships day etc. But my father as he is,always took responsibility for you as well and promised your mother for picking and dropping you safely at home. So in short it was like more of sister bond than friendship for us then.

We filled each others’ slam book with more than 2 pages and our rest of the gang laughed at us on that We were totally emotional about each other,we were best friends forever!

Then the schools got over. Ironically [?] my family got transferred to another city and we were separated.Not only that our streams also took separate paths. You chose engineering and I chose bachelor’s of Science and subsequently management. In that age when there was no Facebook or Orkut or even the emails we still tried to keep in touch through snail mails. Needless to say we missed each other big time and in our letters we recalled our school days,the time spent together etc.

Slowly,you started going apart in your letters too.I could sense that but could never make out why. Nor could I pinpoint then that you are changing emotionally as a person as we are growing up. I understand that totally now but then at that time it was a confusion in my heart as to what is going wrong. The frequency of letters went down drastically only to vanish one day. And we lost in touch completely when you moved to another city for your job.

I was busy with different things like job,friends and family. Basically life! But in my heart I never forgot you or for that matter our entire gang. Then came the era of mobile phones and needless to say we all got one for ourselves.Thankfully, one of our gang mates found all the lost threads and got in touch with everyone once again. The entire gang of 10-12 people who were scattered across the country were then again brought back on the string of cell phones and we started getting updates from each other on regular basis. I found your number too and excitedly called you up thinking we would be the same BFFs from school. That day was your b’day and I thought what better day to get back to you. We spoke for a moment and I realized your voice was plain and simple and not excited or the ones of that of a close friend. I continued talking to you in my own way but you sounded like “ya ya so?”. That year I was about to get married and I mentioned it to you..in fact my wedding was to take place in 2 months from the day we were talking. And you were like “oh really? cool” !!! I thought you would ask me who’s the lucky one etc etc. But you showed no signs of curiousness or any interest! I was let down,yes I felt bad.Kept wondering what went wrong with you. So I asked you and your reply was this: “C’mon yarr..people change and leave things behind…move on you too okay and get a life!” and we disconnected the call after that,of course there was nothing left to speak!

Days passed by and you too got married to one of our classmates,S-of course I got to know this only through Orkut. You moved to Mumbai and I moved to Mumbai too. Some where in my emotional fool’s heart I still felt the same love and care for you and I thought of visiting you at your office,unannounced. Yes I took that risk of being kicked out! But surprisingly you came out so happy to see me and stuff like that. We spoke almost for half an hour and you also invited me and H to your home and have a meal together. We made some rough plans to meet up,which by the way never got materialized thanks to our work schedules[or so I think,now],but we were hopeful and the best part was you always wanted to meet up,that came out genuinely. We started chatting on gtalk from office. It was almost like daily affair.We discussed tiny things like ‘what you got in your tiffin and what are you going to cook this weekend’ etc. It felt like we were back to being best friends like school days! I was no doubt very happy with it

Then few months down the line one of our friends were to come down from the US of A and we all planned a reunion. Our entire gang was meeting together after almost 12 years. It was so much fun right from the stage of planning.The venue was Pune and you,me,S and K [our other friend] were to travel from Mumbai to Pune. It was a 2 day meet.You suggested that all 4 of us go together by your car. The plan was set and we spent those two days together like never before.No doubt the reunion was a hell of an event we all parted with a promise to meet again soon!

So,all this while things were moving very smoothly and it was like good old days types. Then I left Mumbai and you too were sent on a project abroad. We still continued to chat on gtalk.I conceived and shared this news with you first amongst any other friend from our gang. This was the time we all had moved on to FB. And we were pretty much connected to each other well as compared to Orkut days.

Now sometime back,one day I find your father on FB.I find that he is a regular one in commenting on your photos,status messages. Basically he is very much around in your life. No,this didn’t surprise me cause right from the start I knew that you were in talking terms with your father back then and he used to write letters to you and your sister and send gifts too. So his presence was there but only through couriers. Uncle found me too commenting on your photos and status messages and so he got connected with me saying that from my comments and your replies to them he has felt that I’m your close friend. I said of course and accepted his friend request. He also messaged later saying that since I’m your school friend I must share some of your school antics with him…this was just about 3-4 days since we were connected to each other on FB. Suddenly after that I found your father not appearing in my list at all. I checked and realized that he has un-friended me!

I wondered why? What could be the reason? Why did he behave like this? So, of course instead of asking him I thought I must ask you this. I wrote you a message on FB asking precisely this. 4 days went by you didn’t reply.I thought you must have been busy so might not have checked the message or skipped checking the FB inbox. I posted on your wall ‘sent you a message,please check‘ I waited for another 2 days and when I went to your wall to see if FB forgot to notify my of your reply to my wall post I realized that the wall post has been deleted! This just created more curiosity in my mind. For a while I thought just let it be…but then on second thoughts I felt I should know what’s wrong! So I re-messaged you asking the same. To which you replied the same day saying “nothing much,papa is slowly exiting from FB and hence removing contacts,just may be! And why you creating a drama out of the whole thing? Just chill,okay”

Oops! Drama? Did I create a drama by asking a simple question? And what does deleting the wall post mean? No drama there? I would have been okay if you’ve said ‘you’re curious’ !

I wonder even today,what was so wrong for your father to have been connected to me? What was going on in your mind about it? I don’t know but I never felt anything wrong about my father being like a father to you back then and doting you in the same manner as he did to me. He even today checks for you with me and he too has not forgotten you.What could be the reason for such behavior? I really wish I could travel to your mind and know.I really wish you could have openly talked about this to me.I really wish!!!!

And since that day you’ve stopped commenting on my photos,status messages,or even replying to my comments on your photos/status messages whereas you reply to each and everyone in the comments’ section. It’s evident.I’m not a kid. In fact I’m sorry to myself to have expected that you would be the same best friend that I had years back. I know once again I’ve been proven an emotional fool. That people are way to practical to move ahead,and how!

Okay I don’t deny the fact that people change,times change and everyone in their own way move on.Right,I do agree and I’ve changed and moved on too.There are people whom I’ve left behind myself but the only difference is I never pretend to be their the then type of friend even for a bit,like you did after so many years. If I’m friends with someone it’s a YES for life long and if I’m not then it’s a NO forever! Things are pretty much black and white at my end unlike yours. But then I’ve learnt a lesson,and I must thank you for this!

So why am I writing all this to you,ex-BFF? Just to record it for myself and come back and read it if yet again you come out normally with me and pretend to be my good friend if not the best one. I want to remember how you have behaved with me all along.So that I don’t do the same to anyone OR I don’t expect from you,or from anyone for that matter, now on!

Yours 

Me.

This post is an entry for Women’s Web Contest.

There is a lot said and written about pregnancy across the globe and I’m adding my two cents to the available data. I’m a 6 months old mother and I’m hoping that my memory doesn’t ditch me while I’m writing about my 9 months journey

# 0: Before you have conceived:

Once you plan to conceive [ that is you and your partner are totally sure and physically,mentally and financially ready to take this plunge] please be stress free. People will keep telling you to eat this and drink that. Sleep like this and position yourself like that while having intercourse. I don’t say it’s all crap. All I’m saying is just don’t stress yourself and make intercourse a task for this reason. The more relaxed and happy your mind is the more you’ll feel better about it’s outcomes,trust me!

Idea: just forget that you’re trying to conceive. Take it as just another time’s play with your partner

#1: Doctor Doctor:

These days it’s easy to know yourself by using home pregnancy tests. It’s quick,convenient and first hand information.Having said this doesn’t mean you only rely on that.Just when you discover that you’re pregnant go and see your gynecologist with a positive mind. Here the key is to find a trustworthy and compatible gynec. It is very important for you,your partner and your doctor to click well cause it’s going to be months long association and it’s about trust. So do your homework prior to this stage.Consult your friends and family in advance about the gynecologists available in the city before zeroing in on one.

Idea: While at 0th stage visit a gynec or two suggested by your folks and check whether he/she suits you in every way!

#2: Walk the talk:

Once you’re on the mark to ‘get set go’ to meet your baby at the other end of the 9 months journey please start walking. Ideally 30 mins in the morning and 30 mins in the evenings/nights post dinner. Whichever time suits you or both. It’s not only healthy for you to walk in general but it’s particularly good for your body to reach to the new levels now in this journey. Especially morning walks would help much much in every way specially if you’re able to chose a place like gardens or a area with all greens around. Nothing like breathing in fresh morning air with the trees around,no? But if you don’t have a garden around fret not,you still walk and help your body in developing new strength that it will require going forward.

Idea: Make these walks merrier by taking your partner along This way you not only get the cozy time with each other but you also get to talk about your promotions in life which are shortly due

#3: Books [and the Internet] are best friends:

Surely we’ve all been taught from the time we could remember that books are our best friends.Why not,it’s totally true. And it’s also true in the case of pregnancy books. There is plethora of material available in the form of books and on the Internet. I won’t suggest you to not read it at all. In fact I’ll suggest you to pick a book or two and one pregnancy site or two and read it thoroughly. But read it like a novel,save it in your brain like an information and not beliefs. No,again I’m not saying that whatever such materials state is all bogus and one should not believe it. All I’m saying is there is great info available about what happens to your body and how’s your baby growing in. Take it all but to a level where it doesn’t get harmful. If you start knowing more and questioning everything then it might be a problem for you and your doctor too. Remember #1? We’ve chosen a good doctor because of this only,right? He/She knows it all and you’ve got to trust the doc. If you have any doubts after reading the stuff feel free to check with the doctor.You might disagree with him/her but you should not mistrust cause at the end he/she is the one who read the medical books and cleared the exams!

Idea: Just pick one source of consultation and keep it that way until the end. Read everything but trust your doctor in the end,okay? {see that’s why it is very important to have an experienced and a good doctor first thing in place}

#4 Old is gold:

And why not! It’s true but keep this age old adage aside for this time please. In earlier times there were females who did almost every household chore on their own, tasks like sweeping,fetching water from the wells et al. It slowly became a tradition that a pregnant women should do such chores to strengthen their muscles especially lower abdominal ones and should continue doing this till the end of the journey. But people following traditions forgot that times have changed drastically since then till now. Now,almost every one of us has household help and usually these days you won’t find women sweeping the floor or doing any rigorous physical exercise when it comes to household chores,is it not? So,now because you’re pregnant you suddenly start following the tradition,no please don’t. At least not at the risk of causing injuries to your body.Having said this I don’t mean that you stop doing your regular activities like going to work or cooking etc. Just that don’t do anything which will put stress on your body!!

Idea: Just don’t start any new physical exercise which your body has never done before or in a long long time. Your body is as it is going through a sea change so don’t put more challenges on it and make it difficult ! Keep your body happy,listen to it and stay merry yourself! Nothing like a happy body which doesn’t complain,right? On the contrary if lot of  physical exercises is a part of your daily routine  and your doctor too is okay with you continuing with them even now,go ahead. But only in consent with your doctor and body,remember that!

#5: Stressing is not for you,lady:

Stressing in these days,because of anything,is not a good idea at all. Be it emotional pressures,work pressures or whatever. Try to stay away from all these negative energies. It not only affects your mind but it reaches to your baby too. It’s said whatever you feel is felt by your baby.So if your going to be cranky be assured that you’ve a cranky nut in making. And no kidding I’m not. It’s true. Try as much as possible to stay away from such environment. If it is work which is creating havoc in your life and if you can manage to get a change of location,seat or project-ask for it. If nothing works and if you can leave the job with no further stress being caused at the financial front-just don’t think even once and leave it! Basically just do whatever you can,easily,to stay away from stress.

Idea: Stay happy by reading good books,watching good movies and talking to friends & family. Or better just turn in to your spouse  

#6: Rituals? Okay but not if they are lengthy:

Specially in your advanced months you would find it difficult to sit / lie down / stand for a longer time. Before committing to any ritual at home or at friends’ please make sure that it doesn’t require you to stand / sit for a longer time. Or at least make sure that it’s flexible enough to let you take a break and rest for at least 30 mins.

Idea: Check about the rituals in detail with your elders. If you think it’s not going to work for you,try talking to your elders about the options you can exercise and if nothing’s possible,just say NO. Saying no then might break some hearts but then it will save you all from the tantrums your tired body will throw at you later!

#7: It’s you and none other,don’t forget:

Agree that the body goes through a lot of changes in these times. But the person remains the same,no? You just have to follow the doctor’s advice,take medicines in time,eat properly and stay happy. Nothing difficult in following this,right?

Idea: Just tell yourself that it’s a positive change taking place in your life.So nothing to fret about. Stay the way you’re and do what all you did before this-like smiling,going to movies,parks,shopping,parties etc [of course in consent with the doctor if  god forbid there are some complications]..do everything cause this is the time to cherish. Just be yourself and you’ll see everything’s gonna fall in line!

#8: Panic not,use your brain and the file pack:

Anything happens,panic not. Yes,I’m still saying,that you must relax and then act. Acting haphazardly will not take you anywhere.Remember with anything happening you always have 2 mins to think through and decide what’s gotta be done next.Get the important phone numbers-like doctor’s,close family & friends, a person,other than your partner,who would take you to the hospital when required,some tips to follow while in labor, your important medical history papers and such in one place, right from the start. As you progress in your pregnancy keep adding to the bunch.

Idea:Create a file pack/folder of these things and let everyone in the house know where it’s being kept so that any one can locate it when it’s urgently required without wasting time in searching for it all over.It might sound kiddish but even when you think you don’t require it all at the start of 1st trimester get these things in place then itself. Cause this is the time you are more active,thoughtful and comparatively free than you’ll be in your later stages.

#9: Plug in to soothing music:

Like Garbhasanskar,shlokas,some artis of the god’s you believe in. And yes the best would be Gayatri mantra.Trust me it’s a magical one. I was suggested this by a friend and I immediately adopted it in my routine and gals I’m telling you it felt really really better whenever I heard those chants. It’s awesome,soothing and relaxing. You gotta hear it to know what I mean.

Idea: Plug into your earphones while travelling to work,while on walks, while you got to sleep and yeah the moment you get up It will not only brighten your mood it will help you relax throughout the day!

#10: Hey mother-to-be,listen to me:

There will be umpteen number of aunties sending in their precious advises,long lost friends also pouring in lot of Internet age gyaan and of course the mother in law and the mother of yours will add their knowledge and experience to it too…what’s more people like me are also basically spreading gyaan only worry not. Listen to everyone. Cause listening never causes pain in the …anywhere But just be careful if you’re deciding upon following someone’s advise. Pick only the one which suits you on emotional and other grounds and check with your doctor cause he/she will be the one who will tell you if doing something will suit you physically or not.

Idea: There is a saying in Hindi सुनो सबकी करो मन की ! Which means ‘listen to everyone but follow only what your heart says’ so in addition to your heart listen to what your doctor says

Pregnancy is the first step towards motherhood. It’s a very important phase of your life.Cherish it. Record it.Live it to the fullest. Stay happy,stay healthy and Stay good! Happy Pregnancy

Sometimes I need him just to flaunt to this world that see even I have him it’s not only you,so you better not show off ! But then this remains just a wish,a dream and it phases out by the next second of me thinking about it!

This is when I reach to the point where I question the almighty. This is when I ask ‘why me?’ time and again. Sometime back I thought I’ll keep asking Him this question and not give up until He answers it. But He never did that. Or did He?

Life can be unfair at times. Life can be a bitch. I read somewhere ‘Life is not a bitch,your Karma makes it so’ ! Ha!!!
So by this now I’ve to blame myself for everything that happened a decade ago? Isn’t it too sweet? Some rules of life I just don’t understand. May be I’m not meant to know them,understand them.I’m just here to get confused by them and keep wondering ‘what went wrong?’

And coming to what went wrong…I’ve analysed things with so many angles.With every possible side a problem and it’s people can have. All in all I never found myself to be the key player in ruining things around but yet the fact remains-I’m one of the key receivers of bad things coming everyone’s way because of that one decision! Ain’t it funny? You don’t do nothing and you still get something to crib about all your life? If that’s the rule of life then why does it not happen with good things? Like you don’t put efforts for best things to come in your life but you still get them anyway?

So,is it really the Karma only which plays the games of life with us? Is it me? I’ll never get the answer to my questions…never! And I’ve stopped hoping too so it hurts a little less but the hurt is there. It doesn’t go away and I don’t think it shall pass by any time soon or ever!

Not only time pass but then it teaches you,takes you through other’s lives,tells you some naked truths about life and sometimes makes you happy to see some smiling faces around. People are in so much hurry. They keep running to reach somewhere.Some might be running to reach to a meeting in the office,some to reach their college,some must be meeting their friends and in between all this hustle bustle some might be just sitting there waiting for hope….for life to happen…for luck to turn good from bad…just waiting and looking in the blank.

The world is such a small place.You meet so many people and find out that there are friends in common and how. My friends’ brothers’ wife is my other friend’s friend! Sigh! With such connection which are still some how indirectly connected to you,you feel hawww,really? you know her? But in the local train every one seems to be knowing everyone else and they don’t bother to even know the connections,wait a minute are there any connections at all? They talk like long lost friends. They need not know each others’ names but the very fact that they are travelling in the same train everyday is more than enough for them to gel well. Such is life,in Mumbai!

Life in metros is certainly different from other comparatively small towns but life in Mumbai is something else. It has so much vigor in it..so much speed,so much magic and yet it is deceptive in it’s own ways. Every time you’re in Mumbai you have different feelings about it.The last time that you felt changes to something else in the other trip. No wonder it is called as mayanagri! It engulfs you and shows you an entirely different world…a different life far far away from what you’re living now. It makes you yearn to come back again and again…it makes you fall in love with it…no one can stay away from the spell of it’s magic! That’s Mumbai people,that’s Mumbai for me!

So first day and all that. Got up on time in an instant the alarm made it’s way to my ears…as if I was not sleeping at all and was waiting to get up,ha! So got ready according to the class…just in the way I had imagined a dancer to reach to her stage of practice and I really felt good about self,yeah

Reached to the class and felt the floor..which was left behind in the race of degrees and appraisals! But then it’s never too late,is it? The class started with rigor and loud music….not loud actually but just the right volume which give those tapping songs a sort of energy and the sounds transform that energy into your enthusiasm! yeah that loud…for a moment I thought I had forgotten how the feet are to be tapped…how to co-ordinate the left and the right hand/leg steps…for a moment I felt like a newbie on the ground who just doesn’t know what does D of dance stands for! Haww! And here I keep talking about me having learnt Bharatnattyam and done yoga for quiet a few years! Sigh…some misconceptions I was carrying tall in my head!

I did the hip hop and salsa steps the way were told to me and the instructor smiled at me..a sense of achievement[already?] rushed through me exactly the same way a toddler would feel on being applauded on his first drawing

Talking about the instructor,J,he is a cutie pie…raw,chocolate faced just out of oven freshly baked cake ready to be gobbled up I liked him in an instant for his considerate ways of telling me to slow down since it’s my first day…I liked him for the way he conducts himself with the ladies in the classroom..I liked him for how he is so gentle on the guys too and yet was strict enough to not let me cheat a step or two in between So yes I like J and I think he is cute !

It has been 4 days now and I’m slowly yet steadily falling in line with the rest of the class and it feels good. It feels good to get up early,have a fresh morning sun say hi to you,having a routine,to have an entire day for yourself and to plan it the way you want to just because you get up early and saved a lot of time! Moreover it feels good to get on the track to getting back in shape…and which shape I’m I targeting at? Well the one which I had few years back…my body..my size…the right size that suits my height…I want to go back to it…no,having a baby didn’t really damage [as some put it] my figure[?] but it’s me and my lifestyle over the years which resulted into it…so there!

Any way,I’m not going to remind myself of the wrongs that I did but I’m going to keep them aside and look closely at the target now in life…staying fit,looking good,feeling confident and being an active and healthy mother to my daughter and children to come! ahh, see I said children,just one time pregnancy can do this to me,gee!

Isn’t it great? One change in life and you feel so much more positive? Since the day I’ve joined these classes I feel I’m changing …and for good. I guess this is what I always wanted to get started with but somehow could never put a finger at! Alas,now that I’ve realized what I wanted and have pinned my priorities right in place I’m happy…more than yesterday!

But thinking about the friendship taking place in the class? I’m yet to say hi to at least single person but hey 2 smiled at me on their own and 1 spoke to me already. So I think this is the start….Why am I wondering so much about it? Well…happening to me after a long gap…being a student,being in the class,being taught by and being new between people! Sometimes I think it’s not the me that I know of…where does that ‘me’ goes away who like to chatter non stop? who needs no introduction or time to start with a conversation? Who is always on her toes to move around people and make friends in an instant? Where is <i>this</i> me gone? Or where does this one goes every morning when I reach to the floor?

Okay let me go and search for her !!! Might be hiding under the table or sleeping below the bed…have to catch her and ask her lot of whys!

Oh and as I sit here and write this I get a GOOD news from a dear blogger friend that she got promoted to motherhood few mins back I’m so so happy for her A girl it is,a girl,YAY!!!! Thank you god for the safe and sound delivery!